It wasn’t until, for the first time in 30 years, I was able to develop a healthy relationship with food and exercise that I could see how unhealthy I had always been. For the first time in my life I had found it- balance. I was eating clean, exercising daily and being active. I was reaching my potential as a wife, mom and woman and everything was clicking. To say I was feeling on top of the world would be underselling it.
Then I decided to take it one step further. I accepted an invitation to participate in a TV test group for the 21 Day Fix Extreme. I was pumped! I was all in- Countdown to Competition meal plan. Abs here I come! It’s only 21 days, what could possibly go wrong?
I lost my balance. I became so focused on my physical (very vain) goals, I was no longer living my “why”. I started this journey to be happier, healthier, and enjoy my family more. Four days into my new plan and I was irritable, exhausted, and had lost appreciation for how far I had already come with my body. Instead of looking in the mirror with confidence, I was looking through a microscope of judgement and disappointment. Instead of jumping for joy that the pants I wore 10 years ago actually fit! I was wondering why I couldn’t get just one size smaller. That girl- the “fat” one- was back and it terrified me.
As soon as I realized I was headed down that same old path, I pulled the plug on operation abs. I am still very committed to eating clean and doing my extreme workouts every day, but not at the cost of the confident, happy woman I fought very hard to become. Sometimes we have to lose our balance to see we already had everything we wanted.
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