Giving Up Changed My Life

There was a time in my life, not long ago for the sake of full disclosure, that “God” wasn’t exactly part of my vocabulary. If I used the word it was certainly in vain and for profanity’s sake. I was absolutely too cool to be religious. It wasn’t for me, I had it all figured…

Would You Get a Second Date?

A few weeks ago Chad and I had a date night. My mom came to town and watched the girls so we could do that crazy thing you do before you have kids.. go to a restaurant, alone, and eat a meal of food in peace. (I know, the concept seemed foreign to me as…

Balance

It wasn’t until, for the first time in 30 years, I was able to develop a healthy relationship with food and exercise that I could see how unhealthy I had always been. For the first time in my life I had found it- balance. I was eating clean, exercising daily and being active. I was…

Dear “Fat” Girl

To the girl who thinks she’s fat, I see you second guessing every single thing you eat or drink. Judging yourself relentlessly for every bite of something that you “shouldn’t” have. Casting so much shame on yourself for something most people do mindlessly all day, everyday. I see you feeling the pang of disappointment when…

What To-Do List?

As my mile-long to do list was haunting me from a few feet away, I sat (uncomfortably) on the floor rocking my sweet, teething baby to sleep. She needed to be held, and wasn’t taking no for an answer. I had such big plans with that nap time! How could she?! She’s supposed to sleep…

Beautiful Simplicity

I was putting the laundry away (again) and cleaning, basically just doing the “million things at once” mom thing. Ainsley was napping and McKinley was playing quietly with all of my scarves. Yes- ALL of them. All over our bedroom. It’s a trade-off am I right? Pick the scarves up later and avoid the tantrum….

The Struggle is Real?

My 5 a.m. alarm didn’t need to go off- I’d been up for over half an hour with our youngest. (Who had been up 3 times prior to that since going to bed) It was apparent that bug that had been plaguing the girls had caught up with me and I was sick. Can’t breathe…

Goodbye, Perfect Schedule

As “D” day (delivery) grew closer toward the end of my second pregnancy I found myself clinging to every moment and experience I could with just McKinley. I knew that the time where it was just her and I home together all day was coming to an end and I definitely had mixed emotions about…

Let’s Talk About Sex.. and Babies

There is a warm darkness in the room being lit only by the candles on the table. You can see the flame flicker in your lover’s eyes. You’ve enjoyed a slow, romantic dinner and are savoring the last few sips of your cocktail. The air is thick with anticipation, knowing where the night is headed….

Square Peg

It wasn’t long after Chad and I were married that we found out we were expecting McKinley. (And by not long I mean we got pregnant two weeks after our wedding) We were excited, terrified, and every emotion that comes with that life-changing news. Ready or not, we were about to be parents. Once the…

Magical Kisses

The laundry is piled up, there are dishes in the sink and overflowing onto the counter, and let’s not talk about how long it’s been since I’ve really scrubbed the floors. But none of that matters because today I discovered I have a super power. I can’t fly, I’m not invisible, nor do I have…

Letting Go of the Numbers Game

I had just devoured my third piece of greasy, cheesy, loaded with every topping, delivery pizza and was about to tear into an unreasonably sized slice of raspberry white chocolate cake. It was my 30th birthday and I was 36 weeks pregnant eating as if I were supplying calories for a litter, not just one…